Play Time

I know that I have not been blogging nearly as much as I used to. I am sorry to those who are faithful blog readers. I can't say that I will blog more now, it's not like I didn't blog on purpose. I was busy in the month of December I guess and oddly I felt like I had better things to do...weird.

I want to say that lately I have been feeling an urgency when I need to go to the bathroom. This is a pregnancy symptom I always get so I told Sharrid I was a little concerned. We are NOT trying to get pregnant anytime soon. I would almost feel irresponsible because over the past 6 months or so, this economy has really wormed it's way into our personal finances. I know we are not the only ones. Anyway, Sharrid went down to get me a test this morning and had it ready for me to take when I woke up. Obviously he is not as anxious as me about getting pregnant. I thought I sensed a little excitement even. Whew! Not pregnant.

Back to the economy. We hear about it all over the TV and radio, and it's something that is effecting everyone. If you aren't feeling it now, you probably will at some point. We've been really tight since summer when our mortgage raised over a hundred and fifty bucks. We got a letter with our power bill today saying rates are going up because of the economy. Our credit card company just screwed us BIG time initially giving us a December "break" and then telling us we didn't qualify for it after the fact, and after everything our soft water company calls us for referrals? Get real! No one cares about soft water when you are in survival mode. I am aware that some people are not so much feeling the economy right now. I am happy for those people. The funny thing is, I don't get stressed about money anymore. I used to at one point but I'm starting to not care so much.

Sharrid and I talk a lot about this subject and our situation specifically all the time. I told him I just don't care anymore...about a lot of things. I told him I don't care to be a home owner. We don't own the house anyway, the bank does...and like we're going to settle here, no we are not. So with this bad economy, so far it 's a bad investment. The prophet didn't say "You need to own a house." He said we need to get out of debt and get our food and water storage. He also said we need to enjoy life and live in the moment. Life's too short to care so much about things that don't matter when we're all gone I've decided. Sharrid is finishing up school here in the next week I think and then I told him that I might cancel our Internet service. That means I wouldn't be blogging for a while. It would be a huge sacrifice. Everybody knows how much the Internet is used. I believe our cell phones are up in March and I refuse to sign another contract so we will probably cancel those also or at least down grade with another company. (we don't have a land line). In the long run I told Shar all I cared about was making sure the kids had food and clothes. All of this has to do with a fresh start because if you didn't already know, we will most likely be moving to NV in the spring. This post probably didn't make much sense before that little bit of information, sorry. And I'm sorry the post is such a downer but I do want a fresh start. That's what I want this year. I want to kind of start over in a lot of ways. Each year was getting better and better for Sharrid and I...until this economy took a dump. This new year has to be a turning point because things are a little different now. I've thought about my new year goals and even written some things down. It all seems to center on spiritual improvements, tightening the screws...and a temporal make over....starting fresh.

Thank goodness for our boys!