The Big Ultrasound

It's a boy! She told us pretty much right away, and then went on to get some great shots of him, as she told us everything was right and healthy. She told me that I was a week and a half ahead of what my due date said but then said Ultrasounds can be that way and that I might just have a good sized kid in there, great! I get the feeling he is big because I made a comment about his "little legs" and she quickly corrected me saying that his legs were actually big legs and had a good amount of fat on them already! She said that he was really photogenic, which I thought was funny because I didn't drink any of the water I was supposed to (weak bladder). Try and see these pictures the best you can, they are the best I can do...Phoenix Bitner Hill will be his name and I am still due on June 2nd, but now I have reason to hope he will come in May. Phoenix was trying to suck his hand/thumb the whole time. Some of these pictures look like he has a hair line. I don't know if that is what it is but it might not be.

After finding that the baby was a boy, at least we did, but you start to be in the mind set and forget all about a girl pretty much. We didn't dwell much on the fact that we are not having a girl and started talking about "the boys" and calling Phoenix by name instead of "it". It was fun to think that I can load all Marcelus old clothes into Phoenix' dresser and reuse them so soon. It was also kind of a "that's nice" to think that I didn't need to buy any clothes unless I wanted to. I'm so happy to know I'll at least have more than just one boy. I'm still positive I'll have a girl at some point. Knowing me, I'll keep trying for her.

By the way, I have updated my profile a bit if you want to read it...

Marcelus is a baller!

and vacuumer!

Eggo Waffles

Yesterday, I was finally able to satisfy Marcelus with an Eggo waffle for breakfast. Don't you hate it when your kids ask you for something, like Marce will say he wants to eat - I'll take him in the kitchen, and then it takes us 10 minutes to figure out WHAT he wants to eat. Same thing happens with movies...Anyway, so I gave a waffle with a bit of powdered sugar on it (we grew up on that) There was no way I was giving him syrup...Well, a little while later he came back to me holding the bag of Eggos. He had gotten in the freezer and gotten them I guess. So, I made him another one. And again, a little while later he came back and asked to eat. Urgg, "Are you kidding?" So, he dragged me to the kitchen and sure enough, he wanted another waffle. So....I made him another one. So Marcelus ate 3 Eggo waffles for breakfast yesterday! He's only had one so far today...

Candid shots

If you have been keeping up with my blog, you know that Marce is obsessed with my vacuum, actually all vacuums and vacuuming in general. We had a bad situation in Walmart just the other day when we walked past the "V-word" isle. It was crazy...anyway, Kira who has been living with us has been having Marcelus help her with her laundry. I didn't know this until a few weeks ago. So now, Marcelus wants to help with any laundry which is great. So, along with vacuuming, he does laundry too! I am carefully taking pictures of all of this so that when he's 12 or better yet 16, I can show him who he really is deep inside...a hard worker!! He would also love to help me unload the dishwasher, but that's one that I hate! I'll have him do that someday when he can actually put the dishes away!

You know once in a while I like to watch a TV show, like Jeopardy! or watch a Netflix movie or a movie of my own. Just once in a while though, and I've just noticed that Marcelus is such a TV hog. I'm not saying he watches too much TV, but movies and stuff like that, there's always something on as he goes here and there. I don't mind that there's always a movie on, because let's be honest he has no one but me (how fun) to play with, and I can't take him anywhere. If I could I'd take him out for ice cream, or to the park, or for lunch, or something. But, I can't, so we are stuck here at home all day, and right now all week haha. The point is I do kind of get irritated if there's something I really want to watch, like a ball game or something. I was thinking of buying a small TV with a built in VDV/VCR in it for Marcelus' room or mine, and then he could watch something and I could watch something if I wanted, but Shar said to me, "yeah that's a good idea, but why don't you just put it on in our room on the computer?" Duh! We have a pretty decent computer, it never occured to me that I can watch a movie on it, so now when I want to watch something on TV I make Marce watch his movie on my computer, how nice, everyone's happy. I put a pillow on the chair to raise him up a bit, get him a snack and a drink and were good to go...YAY!

Little Ditty of an update

Today I had a dr. appt. and heard the heartbeat. I hadn't had an appt. since before Thanksgiving. But, no big deal cause I've been feeling the baby just fine. Now I am 19 weeks on monday. My big Ultrasound is on Friday the 11th at 8:30 AM . I keep asking Sharrid things like "You'll be ok if we have a boy...right?" or saying things to him like "Well, if we have a boy, don't worry, I'll keep trying for a girl." (Sharrid wants a girl) He doesn't care THAT much ...as long as we do have his little girl eventually, but he did say that if we had twins he would want them both to be girls,...he wants girls, hmmm, we'll see what happens. By the way twins does not even run in our family, we were just small talking.

I'm leaning towards a girl, partly for Shar's sake. But I am so stressed out about a few things, preparing for the baby is one of those things, buying a new car to accomodate the family is another. On top of that...let's see, a mortgage raising this summer, Shar still in that bloody Academy! And my number one New Year resolution - Eliminate debt. All of that has to tie together somehow and I'm very curious to see how it will work.

After my appt. today we looked at the car I want to buy. It's a Kia Rondo. I had never heard of them before, but this week I've been extensively researching cars online. Anyway, we'll see if we end up with one but here's a picture of what it looks like.

Poetry Post

This is actually not a poem, but the lyrics to a song, one of the songs I've written. I wrote it in early 2004 when I was going to college which is when I wrote the majority of all my songs and poems.

Knowledge Is All You Take

Education is underrated
The quick fixes are overtaking
But before you make a big mistake
Let me just shout out and say
Knowledge is all you take

Knowledge is all you take
Knowledge cannot be fake
You either know it or you don't
You'll either learn it or you won't
But knowledge is all you take

I once said I hate learning
Books were made for burning
But I didn't know it could be this way
And now I try to learn something new everyday
Cause knowledge is all you take

In High School I was faking
The classes I was taking
I didn't ever pull off the grades
And now I think goodness sakes
Knowledge is all you take

I don't know how to say it
But the drums - man, I can play it
I played for games and other events
And now I've been playing ever since
Knowledge is all you take

I took out the time to know
The seventh born of Joe
I learn so much from him everyday
So much that I will never be able to repay
Knowledge is all you take

I love the dark raced skin
Their legacy's always been
I feel it deep inside of me
Without knowledge of them I would not be me
Knowledge is all you take

Information by the pagefuls
The books in there are not sold
Gives you books for free to read
You can check them out down the street
Knowledge is all you take

I've learned to live my love
It came from up above
The reason I am here is deep in me
Music has brought me down to my knees
Knowledge is all you take

-Written by Lexie Willard, 2004

Keeping Sane...

Since I can't really seriously start on my resolutions this year until Shar is out of the academy, which is 2 more weeks, I've been really grateful for all the college bowl games on lately. I've pretty much watched every one I think. It's been keeping me sane.

I also watch all the PHX Suns games. Last night was retro night against Seattle because of the 40th anniversary of the team or something. The 1st quarter was in black and white, and the Suns weren't making anything. We were down 20 points at the end of the first, At halftime we'd come back within 2 as if it were nothing...that's the Suns for you. Then, we won the game by like 10 or something, no big deal. It was pretty funny. I've seen a few games like this so I never worry about the Suns not coming back. They beat up on the Sonics like they were little girls haha...