Here We Are...

...on Wednesday afternoon still big and pregnant 5 days away from the due date. I haven't been sleeping well the last week or two for the most part and from that time on, I've been on the couch. Shar and I rarely see each other and after he got home from work, before we knew it, it was midnight. I can't go to bed too early anymore anyway because it just means a longer time to be uncomfortable. Last night I was so tired but so uncomfortable and I just felt stuffy and big and short of breath and room and miserable. Eventually I fell asleep though. Sharrid came out at 5:30 this morning. I don't know how he survives on that much sleep but he kind of woke me up and I was up for the day. He left for school at 7:30 or so and after not too long, I was bushed! The kids played and destroyed the place and bugged me while I went back to sleep til 10:30. I had just had a bad day from the start. Phoenix wouldn't eat his breakfast and screamed when I wouldn't give him anything else including milk. He starved himself out and fell asleep for an early nap. When he woke up, it was time for lunch and lo and behold...he ate all of his Mac and Cheese. I am so sick of him asking for things he doesn't want and then just wasting them. He didn't even take a bite of his toast. The whole reason I made him one was he ate 3 bites of mine! The kid will not see his 3rd birthday if he keeps up! I was also a bit overwhelmed because the kids destroyed their room while I was sleeping and Phoenix climbed way up to knock the Lego bin down, thus cracking it and spilling them everywhere. They got things out that weren't even toys! I made a "real" dinner last night for the first time in probably a month and then I was too tired to do the dishes. I have been doing them everyday so there is very little to do and I am keeping up on them because I can't stand at the sink long. Well, now I am a day behind and have 2 sessions worth!

Needless to say, I was SO happy when Sharrid got home from school, sat down with me and told me he was starting his time off now. Shar had arranged 8 days off of work from the time I have the baby. He knew what kind of a day I was having and thought it'd be a good idea to take these last 3 days this week and then all 5 next week and go back to work the following Monday. Good idea. I am so relieved! Since he has been in school this semester, it has been really hard on us with our shopping, errands, together time, meals, pregnancy, and moving. We both can't wait til he's done (May 13th) and we both figure he shouldn't have gone this semester from the start. I have missed him as a husband, a help, and a best friend so bad. You don't realize what you have til it's gone and I have missed him terribly. It is not enough to see your husband for a tad on Fri. mornings and just weekends for weeks. Maybe some can do it but with our circumstances at this time, I just feel it's too much for us.

So Sharrid will be here from now on except for school in the mornings. Today we have decided to relax and watch the boys play, eat together...things we haven't been able to do in a while. We are going to do the dishes and then watch a movie I bought that I've been wanting him to see. Tomorrow we have decided to do the chores so that the place is nice and clean when I have the baby. We also need to straighten up Amar'e's room because my book boxes are still in there because they broke my bookshelf in the move. Friday is my appointment in the morning but I really don't even want to make it to Friday. If I do, I'll see if they will strip my membranes or schedule inducement. I am READY! I can't wait to relax and have easy going days with Sharrid and my mom here.