Current Events

• I went home to my parents house for fall break with the boys. It was a great trip. I was able to go to a very close family friends baby blessing/luncheon. I was able to sing with my family around the kitchen table while Kira played her guitar. I can't believe how many songs she knows and I can't believe how good she is, because I remember when she first started playing. I was able to spend some good time with my siblings, just sitting there together sometimes is all I want. I am in awe at how talented each one is. This trip was hard for me for some reason. My heart ached for home, for the valley I grew up in, and for just being in the same room as my family members. I miss living in the valley and loving everything that it is and everything that it isn't. I miss living together as a family. Waking up together, eating together, laughing together, driving together, and going to bed together. I miss having my family an arm reach away, or a room away. I feel so safe when I'm with my family. For some reason on this trip, floods of memories came back to me all week. I felt like I never left home, and it hurt to get in the car and leave at the end of the week. Now I miss my family more than ever.
• Between everything we were able to work on my music 2 days in all. I have to say for the time that we did work on it, we were pretty productive. I only can imagine what I could do given a small slot of time a few days a week to work on this without interruptions. We were stopped in our tracks when what we had left was a lot of decision making and I felt that I needed my sister from then on out on this song. The only problem was that my sister was super busy this trip with countless jobs and projects, not to mention a move to SLC that was supposed to be happening within the week. I wrote down everything we had left to do like a check list and that's how it stands. Once we make some decisions I can probably move on with some of it. I was discouraged to find that my sister was moving. It has been hard enough to work on my music only when I am home and just for short periods of time while there. How on earth will we get it done now with all 3 of us in different places. I am the most determined person I know and I will find a way to do it. I just have to figure it out. This is my biggest thing, my biggest dream, my biggest passion, everything. This is who I am. I am not myself without making music and I will find a way to do it. I know that I am supposed to do this. You are not given these things for no reason. The gifts I have are incredible and I'm going to make the most out of everything. I have been writing music for eight years and it's time to move on to the next level and grow and produce it.
• I have recently been inspired to make my own clothes. I know this sounds extreme but I don't plan on making everything. I think this is something I'd like to try someday but am so focused and busy on my music that it wouldn't be soon. I would like to try after my eyes are fixed. Sewing right now would be a nightmare. We'll see. I also don't want to spend the money on it right now. I just would like to wear things that I don't find in stores, that's all. T-shirts with different hems, stitching, and shapes, designs, letters, ect. that are appliqued ( I don't know if that's the right word) cut out of different fabrics that are stitched or sewn right onto the shirt. Just a thought.
• Our ward Trunk or Treat is on a Thursday night. Dumb. I thought for sure they would make it on Sat. the 30th and that Sharrid would be able to go. Now he will miss yet another Halloween of the boys'. Bummer. I would have liked to sign up for a food item but now I guess I'll just be calling around for a ride.
• I am now 12 weeks along with the pregnancy and so far so good. I think it is definitely a go and in a bit more than a month we'll know what we are having. I'm pretty sure I'm on track to carry low again so my gut says another boy but I don't know if there's any correlation really. I have an Ultrasound on Tues. to check on those bleeds but I think they cleared up on their own. My clothes are getting really difficult and I'm pretty sure I'll have to succumb to the maternity clothes in the next couple weeks but it seems my tummy changed abruptly but then plateaued, so maybe I'll last a bit longer than I think. It's just pretty uncomfortable trying to get them on. The maternity clothes would be frumpy for a while though and I don't dig that. The baby is now the size of a lime from head to bum.