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I am SO tired as I sit here and type this. Today it has dawned on me that I wouldn't be surprised if I were pregnant. Here are the reasons why:

I have been REALLY tired in the mornings and it has been hard getting myself out of bed. I have been trying to sneak naps in the day also. I have been so worn out lately. It has been hard keeping up with the chores and cooking, and I never feel up to taking the kids out on walks. We haven't even been getting the mail lately.

On the flip side, I have been really busy with morning errands and household chores gearing up to leave for our Thanksgiving trip. I have not been working out the last couple weeks, and I probably haven't been eating enough food the last couple weeks either.

I have been peeing more frequently too, never a good thing. I already pee frequently from these babies shrinking my poor bladder, now it's even seemingly worse. I don't know.....I'm just saying....if Shar reads this (he probably won't, he never reads my blog unless I force him) but if I tell him he'll make me test right away all the while being secretly excited at the possibility.

Not that it would be bad but it's not the right time of year to get pregnant in Arizona...actually it's the worst. Besides that, our near future is uncertain and adding a pregnancy to it wouldn't seem to help matters. Shar is trying to finish up his associates, our lease is up this spring, and treatment of my ONH is on the horizon. We had planned to get pregnant this summer so that I could carry the baby through the winter and deliver when Phoenix turned 3 or thereabouts. It's good for sanity's sake to spread them out a bit. Now I don't know what the plan should be. I will admit I have been baby hungry lately but have decided to put mind over matter and stick to the original plan. It's just easier with the thought of Phoenix being older and although I'm a little baby hungry, that doesn't mean I want to be pregnant. That part I'm not so hungry for.....who knows what the answer is. I guess if I am pregnant right now then that is what the answer is! If I'm not I still don't know.

Nap time......then chores and packing!