What I Want

I've been thinking the last few days that I really want a used piano for Christmas. You can find them on Craigslist for a couple hundred. I really don't care what it looks like as long as it's not thrashed and all the keys work. I guess it's probably the songs I've been listening to lately. Well, actually I've always listened to songs with piano and orchestration in them. I have a little collection of piano music (half of it I stole from my mom). Yeah, I need to make copies of that stuff and give it back. And sheet music is affordable. I love to play but it's not easy on my eyes. If I learn a song it's only because I really like it. It has to be worth the hardship for me. Most times I just write my own music and play that by ear. Any song I learn, I memorize it by the time I'm done learning it. That's because it takes me a while to play through a song because of my eyes and also because I don't know a lot of my notes well. Anyway, it'd be great to get one. I'll be keeping my eye on Craigslist I guess over the next few months but if any of you know anyone who is getting rid of one anytime soon, let me know. There's pretty much only one place in my house I could put it but it's worth it to me even if it's squishy. Maybe the kids would like to hear me play,...well, try to play. I remember so many nights falling asleep to my mom playing the piano. That was a long time ago when I was young. It will be good to have a piano in the house so my kids can get familiar. They are all going to take when they are ready, usually around age 8 my mom says. For me it will be great, and maybe I can start to compose all the music I've written. That will be a very long process and I might need outsider help but it'll be great just to freshen up and play. About the time I left home I still couldn't read any better but I wrote a lot of songs at the piano, just made them up. Michaela loved when I played them. Her favorite was a eerie minor song that she said reminded her of Halloween. It did remind me of the score to a horror movie. Tibi & Lan always liked my music cause I've always used them as guinee pigs to see if it was good. Thankfully my dad never seemed to mind. He was always working right there at the computer.

Something totally unrelated...you know I should probably keep something sweet in the house at all times, just for those craving moments when you NEED something. It gets pretty bad sometimes. You know what I'm talking about, like when you were little and wanted chocolate really bad so you scanned mom's cupboards and found bakers chocolate and thought you had scored big time. Yeah, well...the other night was really bad and of course I'm trapped here not being able to drive and all. I became pretty creative. I was supposed to make a dessert for Phoenix' blessing which I didn't have time to do which was good cause we had enough sweets and cake but I still have the stuff for it and wanted to half the recipe anyway when I make it in the future (my little family doesn't need 2 pies!) So, I took out one of the Oreo crusts and started eating it as a sweet snack. Yeah,...Oreo my butt! It was gross and didn't taste anything like Oreos. Now I know to make my own Oreo crust for the dessert! After that failed I opened a can of sweetened condensed milk. I knew that stuff was really good but wasn't sure if it was a good idea to just eat it right out of the can. I looked at the ingredients: milk, sugar. PERFECT! Boy was it yummy. I only ate half the can. After a while I started to feel guilty for eating it. It'd probably just be a good idea to keep some Reeses or M&M's in the house...but then I'll just eat them too much. I don't know but don't you hate those cravings!