I'm Still Here

I haven't posted for so long. After Christmas, it will be more. It's been so busy and crazy. I don't even know where to start for you who are reading this. I'm pretty much done with Christmas shopping, and just ready for Christmas to come ...and then leave and I mean that in the best possible way. I'm excited to see and be around my family and have our gift exchange. I am excited to see if Marce will understand gift giving and opening presents. I kind of hope he gets it, that would be fun for Shar and I. We've gotten him some really fun stuff. I can't wait.

I'm really excited for the New Year. I have my first Dr. appt. in a long time on the 5th, and I'm hoping they Ultrasound me that day as I'll be 19 weeks along. I had to cancel my last appt. because of insurance/schedule issues. By the time my next appt. hits I'll be far enough along for the big Ultrasound, but so far it is just a reg. appt. If I don't have the Ultrasound that day, I'm sure it'd be no more than a week later that we'd do it. This time around, I feel kind of the same way I did before with Marcelus' - don't really care what the sex is. It would be great to have a boy and have 2 little boys that could potentially be really close, and I still have every scrap of clothing of Marcelus' to use for the baby...or a girl, something we haven't experienced, curious to see what "our" girl would look like. It'd be nice to know that I at least had one of both...plus Shar wanted a girl the first time, and now of course he wants a girl this time also. He didn't grow up with any girls in the family, and last but not least, for sentimental reasons (she'll be named after my grandma)

I'm also excited for the New Year because I've set some really good goals. I'm hoping I can really be productive, I think they are very doable anyway. I know until January I can't start on them and even in Feb. it will be better because Sharrid will be out of the Academy. I'm really focused on them, keeping them in my mind, and itching to start making a difference in them, despite Christmas right around the corner...I'm hoping to have made some good progress even before the baby comes, (June 2nd) and at that time I'll really know how I'm doing, after all, the year will almost be half over!

It will be nice when Sharrid is out of the Academy. We're getting there, the end of Jan. will be the end of the Academy. He is working on passing his tests, the academic part he has done very well in, the physical for him is a little tougher. He has the weirdest body! He can't do some things that usually everyone can do. I think he grew too much for his own good. Another thing that doesn't help him physically is that he's gotten hurt, sometimes as a kid and never fixed the injuries, so he has a couple hang ups like that, but he will do fine. He's making progress. He is home every night this week, and then we'll enjoy Christmas together, after that he'll have a few more weeks of being away all week.

I'm excited for this year, goals being met, a new baby and family member, a better job for Sharrid...