We're Moving

I don't want this post to be too long so I'm going to put a lot of thoughts and feelings into nut shells. Sharrid and I met in Las Vegas as we were both attending UNLV. I dropped out of school. Long story short, I loved my major (dance) but wanted to focus on my music. Right at this time I met Shar and we got married. I got pregnant 3 months later with Marcelus. (there goes working on my music ha ha). We stayed in Nevada for the first year of our marriage and then moved down to Chandler AZ. Sharrid was working as an electrician for Yesco company. He then got very sick with thyroidism and started working for the University of Phoenix instead so that he could recover with a "desk job". He did not like it and only worked it a year before going into the Academy for Corrections which is what he does now and has been doing for nearly 4 years. We have lived in Chandler, Maricopa, Gilbert, and Mesa while we have been down here. We have met great people and become close friends. My handivap always made it impossible to strengthen and keep friendships as we've moved around a lot and I could never make visits to them, but we have known a lot of wonderful people down here.

Over the past few years we have tried to get jobs in Nevada. As our family has grown, we have realized that it's very difficult for our family to function the way other families do, because of the fact that I cannot drive at all. As our family grows and the boys get older, it only gets worse. There has been so many times that we've applied for jobs to go back to Nevada, and haven't gotten them. But, we always applied when a job was open. This was just one of those job openings and we got the job this time. I had learned not to hold my breath. It was a real stressful situation for me to get Marcelus settled into a school with transportation to and from this year for Kindergarten. After going through this, I thought this might be the time we get the job.

My parents still live in Nevada and will be a big help to us as we try to transport our kids around but being in the valley will just be easier anyway because it's a very small place where everybody knows everybody. So car pooling, networking, ect. are all easier there than here. I am happy to be going to a smaller, simpler place where I feel like I've got people watching out for my kids. It's a community. I'm mostly excited for my kids to be able to have some freedom and roam around rather than be cooped up because it's too big and too unsafe here. It's a better situation for us. My handicap is blown up here for everyone to see, but I feel like it's more concealed in the valley, like it's not so obvious or something because I'm more capable and free there. I don't know. I've been wanting to move back for a while now I think.

The only reason I have been able to be happy down here is because of my sister and her family, and her husband's family...also a few really good friends I've made. It has been great to be with them. My sister has become my best friend and our kids have gone from babies to little boys (and girl) together. They will still see plenty of each other and it will be just that much more exciting when we come down for a visit or they come up to the valley. I'm excited to garden with my mom, walk Marcelus to school, sign the boys up for little league baseball, take them to all of the community events...raise them the way I was raised in the valley. My kids could do well anywhere. But, I know that I can be a better mom there, and that's a big reason for the move.

Another reason why I'm excited is because I get to see my baby sister and brother go through the last years of their High School lives. Also we will be more centralized to where we'll be able to see extended family a lot more. The bottom line was there were just too many reasons to move, and just one reason to stay. But, my sister's family are just that, family. We'll see them a lot. The truth is that while school is in, we rarely see each other anyway. We'll miss certain things we've always done together.....like visiting each other in the Hospital after we've had babies. It was tradition to bring the new mother a Jamba Juice. Trick or treating together, seeing all the Harry Potter's at midnight together, getting together Christmas Day waiting for the rest of the family to show up from Nevada. These are all things that I will miss a lot. Connie really helped me see that as the years go by, I can gain strength as I seperate myself in a way from my parents and siblings. Watching her be strong, I was able to be a lot stronger and grow some independence. I was able to be happy in raising my own little family. I'll admit I'm still pretty dependent and needy towards my family, but I don't feel so sad like I used to when we do have to seperate after a trip and it's time to go back home with my little family. She helped me with this and maybe that's one reason why we needed to be down here.

I'll miss her and her family...and the Shirley's, but we'll see each other still. We're doing this for the function of the family, and for the kids. That's what you do. It gets back to the kids. My parents moved to the valley for us kids and now I'm doing the same thing for my kids. Wish us well. We love all of our AZ friends and family. I'm sorry if this post doesn't make great sense. I really didn't care to write it. I've got a lot on my mind as we prepare to move in about a week. I needed to get the word out but my mind is kind of elsewhere so I'm sorry if this post is a jumbled mess like it seems. We'll be here til Wed. and then we'll be staying with my parents for a while until we get into a place of our own. We'll get out any new information as soon as we can.